You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

I cannot stand to turn on the T.V. or log on to the internet, for every time I do, my eyes and ears are blasted with visions of Anna Nicole and Brittney Spears. Why? Why do we care? Why are we so freaking out of control as a society that we have nothing better to do, than bring down the lives of celebrities, instead of tending to what is going on in our own back-yards?

Yes, it is very, very sad that Anna Nicole died. Was there mystery behind her death? Highly unlikely, drugs, drugs made her thin, and drugs are probably what killed her. End of story? Well, no! Because now we have all these men coming forth saying they are the father of her 5 month old child. Well, now, isn’t this sad? How many men was she sleeping with? Who cares? That’s the answer. Honestly, if you can’t sleep at night, because you don’t know; then you seriously need to get a life. Let Anna Nicole rest in peace.

Moving on now, to Brittney Spears; why can’t the media (who controls the world and the consciousness of the world by their bull-shit running 24/7) leave her the hell alone? The poor girl has suffered tremendous blows. Sure she married K-Fed, she had kids with K-Fed, and her career started careening downhill faster than a speeding bullet. The paparazzi followed and documented her every good and bad move. But of course, all that is ever reported is the bad news. And let us not forget the 'no panty parade'. I shudder at the thought.

My goodness, the girl catches her husband having sex with another woman, her marriage falls apart, she falls apart, she makes the unfortunate mistake of hanging out with Paris Hilton and falls further into the arms as media’s target for “little girl lost.”  And now all you see on T.V. is “Is Brittney the next Anna Nicole?” Well if the fucked up media has anything to do with it, she will, she will die a tragic death, for everything seems to pan out just as the media predicts. But maybe we could save Brittney, by not listening to the media, not reading all the bull-shit on the internet, and furthermore; not caring about what they say. Maybe we should wish her well, wish her health, peace and love, instead of doing what the media wants us all to do.

Brittney is a human being 1st, star 2nd. She just had two kids, she probably has post-partum depression which makes everything worse, and as I said earlier, her marriage ended horribly, and yes, she has gone crazy. THIS IS NORMAL. This is what happens when marriages fall apart; when there is infidelity, deception, children, etc.. Brittney has feelings (do you think money and fame makes her not able to feel?). She feels pain, she feels misunderstood (and who wouldn't with the media and papparazi in your face 24/7). Should we not allow another human to err on the bad side for a while; after a series of unfortunate events in their lives?  For if someone doesn’t go to the dark side, they will never grow; they will never have character. They will never learn. They will never know who they are. I say it’s better to go a little crazy; than to stay the same, for now that is truly insane.

I could keep writing about how much the media SICKENS me; with their make or breaking of people’s careers, and how they manipulate us and our social consciousness as a whole. They manipulate us the viewers, the stars, the political leaders, actually I’ll just say it…”They manipulate the whole freaking world.” But that would take a book; and I am no writer.

All I am saying is LEAVE THE STARS ALONE! Tend to your own garden—and pay no mind to the bees.

I ran across this quote; and all I can say is..WTF?

 

"I'm so optomistic I'd go after Moby Dick in a row boat and take the tartar sauce with me."

 

I know that people have been wondering or thinking that my getting let go of my job might be a bad thing, or a terrifying thing, after having been there for 6 ½ years. Trust me, it’s not. It’s probably the best thing that ever happened to me. I am sure, and positive that only great things will come of this. I am glad I got the kick in the pants that I needed to get out of my complacency. Obviously, security got the best of me, and I am glad that someone took the security blanket away from me.

I have come up with so many things that I want to do, and I now have that freedom, and I now have no excuses not to do them. All, I can say is “Thank goodness, Byron and I decided to move in together before this happened.” He’s very happy that this happened, because I have been telling him of my wish list and the things I wanted to accomplish this year and in the years to come (none-of which had anything to do with working were I was), hearing me go on and on about what I want, and what I don’t want, so now I am forced to do, to move to the greater, and this is truly a wonderful thing. So trust me, this is all going to turn out well. In fact, I am hoping it will turn out better than expected.

Ahhhhh! A new change, a new journey, a new start to a new and exciting time. Heck, I am getting closer to 40, and I needed to do something else, so bring it on, please!!!!

Change! It's great thing!In the past two years I have been dealt so many blows, hardships and pain, but all of these changes and things have just made me stronger, happier, and more in tune with who I am, and what I want in my life. And boredom and stagnation are not part of my plan. Freedom, excitement and creation, and totally stepping out of my comfort zone are the name of the game. Oh, and a whole lotta love too!

So, as this week comes to a close, all I can say is. I am happy. I will miss the people I worked with, and some of the functions of my job, but that’s the thing. I don’t want a job, I want a life. A balanced life; and I will.

Have a great weekend one and all.

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Side Note: I was very sad last night watching CSI:Las Vegas, as they killed off guest star Liev Schreiber who played Michael Keppler for 4 episodes. He came in while William L. Peterson who plays Gil Grissom, was away doing his other passion-Theatre. I loved watching Liev on the show for the 4 episodes he was on, and I loved the relationship he had with Marg Helgenburger who plays Catherine.

Why? Why-did they have to kill him off? They should have left it open so he could come back again, when William L. Peterson wanted a leave of absense to go do more theatre work. Plus, I was kinda hoping that he would bring new life to the show, and give Catherine a new spin on things. Oh well!He did a great job, and his character was very interesting indeed.

I hope we see more of Liev, and word has it, his girlfriend of two years (Naomi Watts) is carrying their first child.

...however in this case it's freaking snowing and windy. And I am pissed off!!

 

As of an hour ago--I am now without work.

 

Shocked--NO!

MAD-YES!

Sad-YES!

Fucked-YUP!

 

Right now I am going through a whole range of emotions. And did everything under the sun not to cry on the bus while coming home. I am not shocked, because I was sitting at my desk this afternoon, all I was thinking about was "Man, I don't see how I can do this for another 6 months and make it to 7 years." So when the news came to me that I was being 'TERMINATED' I wasn't suprised.

 

How can anyone in the world hide how completely bored and tired they are? You can only fake it for a while, but while I should have been trying to make a change in my life to get out of there, I chose comfort, while still trying to figure out what my next move was going to be. How stupid of me. Then I became complacent. Then I became confused and I got a bit paralyzed, by what I was doing, where should I go? What should I do with my life? And even though all this questioning to my self; I didn't move at all. I should have been moving. Instead I sat there, and grew older and more bored. How stupid.

Everyone has a personality of a cartoon character. Have you ever asked
yourself what cartoon character do you most resemble?

A group of investigators got together and analyzed the personalities
of well known and modern cartoon characters. The information that was
gathered was made into this test.

Answer all the questions (only 10) with what describes you best, add
up all your Points (which are next to the answer that you choose) at
the end and look for your results.

Do not cheat by looking at the end of the e-mail before you are done !

Then forward this to all your friends (including the person who sent
it to you) and change the subject of this message to what character is
you.

1. Which one of the following describes the perfect date?
..a) Candlelight dinner (4 pts.)
..b) Fun/Theme Park (2 pts.)
..c) Painting in the park (5 pts)
..d) Rock concert (1 pt.)
..e) Going to the movies (3 pts.)


2. What is your favorite type of music?
..a) Rock and Roll (2 pts.)
..b) Alternative (1 pt.)
..c) Soft Rock (4 pts.)
..d) Country (5 pts.)
..e) Pop (3 pts.)

3. What type of movies do you prefer?
..a) Comedy (2 pts.)
..b) Horror (1 pt.)
..c) Musical (3 pts.)
..d) Romance (4 pts.)
..e) Documentary (5 pts.)

4. Which one of these occupations would you choose if you only could
choose one of these?
..a) Waiter (4 pts.)
..b) Professional Sports Player (5 pts.)
..c) Teacher (3 pts.)
..d) Police (2 pts.)
..e) Cashier (1 pt)

5 What do you do with your spare time?
..a) Exercise (5 pts.)
..b) Read (4 pts.)
..c) Watch television (2 pts.)
..d) Listen to music (1 pt.)
..e) Sleep (3 pts.)

6. Which one of the following colors do you like best?
..a) Yellow (1 pt.)
..b) White (5 pts.)
..c) Sky Blue (3 pts. )
..d) Dark Blue (2 pts.)
..e) Red (4 pts.)

7. What do you prefer to eat?
..a) Snow (3 pts.)
..b) Pizza (2 pts.)
..c) Sushi (1 pt.)
..d) Pasta (4 pts.)
..e) Salad (5 pts.)

8 What is your favorite holiday?
..a) Halloween (1 pt.)
..b) Christmas (3 pts.)
..c) New Year (2 pts.)
..d) Valentine's Day (4 pts.)
..e) Thanksgiving (5 pts.)

9. If you could go to one of these places which one would it be?
..a) Paris (4 pts)
..b) Spain (5 pts)
..c) Las Vegas (1 pt)
..d) Hawaii (4 pts)
..e) Hollywood (3 pts)

10. With which of the following would you prefer to spend time with?
..a) Someone Smart (5 pts.)
..b) Someone attractive (2 pts.)
..c) Someone who likes to Party (1 pt.)
..d) Someone who always has fun (3 pts.)
..e) Someone very sentimental (4 pts.)

Now add up your points and find out the answer you have been waiting for!

Put your character in the subject line and forward to your friends and
back to the person that sent this to you.

Very interesting to see "who" your friends are!

(10-16 points) You are Garfield :
You are very comfortable, easy going, and you definitely know how to
have fun but sometimes you take it to an extreme. You always know what
you are doing and you are always in control of your life. Others may
not see things as you do, but that doesn't mean that you always have
to do what is right. Try to remember, your happy spirit may hurt you
or others.

(17-23 points) You are Snoopy:
You a r e fun, you are very cool and popular. You always know what's
in and you are never are out of style You are good at knowing how to
satisfy everyone else. You have probably disappeared for a few days
more than once but you always come home with the family values that
you learned. Being married and having children are important to you,
but only after you have had your share of fun times

(24-28 points) You are Elmo:
You have lots of friends and you are also popular, always willing to
give advice and help out a person in need. You are very optimistic and
you always see the bright side of things. Some good advice: try not to
be too much of a dreamer. Dreaming too big could cause many conflicts
in your life.

(29-35 points) You are Sponge Bob Square Pants:
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best
friend that anyone could ever have and never wants to lose. You never
cause harm to anyone and they would never not understand your
feelings. Life is a journey, it's funny and calm for the most part.
Stay away from traitors and jealous people, and you will be stress
free.

(36-43 points) You are Charlie Brown:
You are tender, you fall in love quickly but you are also very serious
about all relationships. You are a family person. You call your Mom
every Sunday. You have many friends and may occasionally forget a few
Birthdays. Don't let your passion confuse you with reality.

(44-50 points) You are Dexter:
You are smart and definitely a thinker... Every situation is fronted
with a plan. You have a brilliant mind. You demonstrate very strong
family principles. You maintain a stable routine but never ignore a
bad situation when it comes. Try to do less over thinking every once
in a while to spice things up a bit with spontaneity!

Now don't spoil it! Have some Fun!! Change the subject of the email to
what you are and send it on!


--
Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.

-Dr. Seuss
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Are You Blessed?
 - Author Unknown

If you woke up this morning with more health than illness...
you are more blessed than the million who will not survive
this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the
loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the
pangs of starvation... you are ahead of 500 million
people in the world.

If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back,
a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you are richer than
75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare
change in a dish someplace... you are among the top 8%
of the world's wealthy.

If your parents are still alive and still married...
you are very rare, even in North America.

If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are
truly thankful... you are blessed because the majority
can, but most do not.

If you prayed yesterday and today... you are in the
minority because you believe God does hear and answer
prayers.

If you can read this now, you are more blessed than over
two billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

THE LOVE SURVEY

1.  DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?  

Absofreakinglutley!!!!!!  

2.  COURTNEY LOVE OR JENNIFER LOVE HEWITT? 

Jennifer - Now she is HOT! (I agree T-mon)  

3.  IF YOU WERE A CANDY HEART, WHAT WOULD YOUR SAYING READ? 

 SWEEEET! 

4.  IF YOU LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH, WOULD YOU GET THEIR NAME TATTOOED ON YOUR BODY? 

No way Jose’ 

5.  DO YOU THINK LOVE HURTS OR STINKS? 

A little bit of both!   

6.  WHO DO YOU LOVE ENOUGH THAT YOU WOULD TAKE A BULLET FOR? 

Friends, family…B.B.  

7.  DO YOU KNOW WHAT LOVE IS? 

Of course, and there are many facets to love. I love..love.   

8.  HAVE YOU EVER HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN? 

Who hasn’t. And I am sure we have all broken a few ourselves 

 

9.  CINNAMON HEARTS OR HEART BOX OF CHOCOLATE? 

Cinnamon hearts. They are a lot like me. 

 

10.  HAVE YOU EVER USED A DATING SERVICE?  

Does Lavalife count??    

11.  WHAT ARE YOU MOST ATTRACTED TO IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? 

 Strength and great character. And if he doesn’t have a good laugh, I am not interested.    

12.  WHAT TURNS OFF THE ATTRACTION FOR YOU? 

Someone who thinks they are tough, and is high and mighty. They make me cringe  

13.  DOES JOANIE LOVE CHACHI? 

 She did at one time, but tired of him when she realized everyone else was in love with him too?   

14.  EVER PLAY 'SPIN THE BOTTLE' OR '5 MINUTES IN THE CLOSET'? 

Yup, after school with some classmates in Grade 6, boy, did I get in trouble!  

15.  TO RUSSIA WITH LOVE OR THE SPY WHO LOVED ME? 

The Spy Who Loved me!  

16.  HOW COULD SOMEONE PROVE THEIR LOVE TO YOU? 

 Being honest, not holding back, and of course lot’s of massages do the trick too!  

17.  IS THERE ANYBODY YOU KNOW WHO LOVES YOU, BUT IS TOO AFRAID TO TELL YOU?? 

Um, no!!!!!!  At least not that I know of.   

18.  WHAT DESERT DO YOU LOVE THE MOST? 

Strawberry short cake! Yum Yum! (me too Tara.. but I also love Pumpkin Pie with lots of Whipped Cream)    

19.  WHAT DO YOU LOVE THE MOST, BACK RUBS OR FOOT RUBS? 

I don’t like anyone touching my cold, freezing tootsies.

20.  WHAT IS YOUR MOST FAVOURITE LOVE SONG? 

I do not like love songs…I make my own love songs when B.B. is in town, and we both sing in tune….lol 

21.  NAME 5 PEOPLE  YOU LOVE, THAT YOU WILL TAG? 

Simon, T.Mon, Lady Di, C.C., Sam, C.H.  

 

So I have had the flu or something yucky for the past few days. I have a shitload of stuff on my mind at the same time.....AND NOTHING OF THIS WORKS TOGETHER! Sick first, shitload of brain crap second.

 

Anyhow, I am here at my soon to be non-home (in fact, I haven't felt at home in ages...what the hell is home anyway? I miss the feeling of being at home...). Yes, I am miserable on a Saturday night, and all I can say is this. The Calgary-Vancouver hockey game sucked so I turned it off. I wish I was with friends watching the UFC. But alas, I watch tV from bed. Thinking about the few things I have to pack. Yes, I am moving again. But right now...right now, all I can think about, is I wish it was a year ago, and I was out dancing with my boys; laughing and having fun.

 

Funny how life changes so quickly.

This morning as B.B. and I were leaving the house, I mentioned that I was very hungry, from having not eaten enough the night before.  I get on the train, and I was so hungry that I was consumed with the thought of food, and what I was going to have to eat when I got to work

 

I get into the office building; walk on to the elevator with two men that work in my building also. They were inquiring about our company, what we do? What sector? I was telling them about our services, when all of a sudden without warning...it came!!!  The big....the loud...the uncomfortable..........STOMACHE GROWL from hell!!!!!!!  Oh, my goodness...it was so embarrasing. Why could my stomache not have waited 5 more seconds for me to get out of the elevator before this happened? 

 

It's always lovely to start your day with a grrrrroooowwwwwl!

I was listening to this podcast today; and this man was going on about how if you give and receive 12 hugs a day; you will (supposedly scientifically proven) add one whole additional day to your life. As I am listening to this guy, I start laughing because

a.) I highly doubt that they could actually have spent the time trying to prove this theory, it would take YEARS. I mean seriously, how could 12 hugs a day add one day to the life of a human being? That means if we did 12 hugs every day, everyday of our being…we could live forever. That’s right; wouldn’t it be unreal to be able to live forever just because you got your 12 hugs in everyday of your life?

b.) It seems improbable to me, that scientists could measure this. What if you got your 12 hugs today, and then tragedy struck, and you died? That kinda blows it all out of the water don’t you think? Or any host of different things could happen to get in the way of the 12 hugs a day theory. A nice theory, but there is no way there is any truth to this.

I continued to listen to this podcast….

..and as the podcast came to a close; I must admit that I was shaking my head, at the preposterous thought behind this whole supposed "scientific proof.” I did know that giving and receiving lots of hugs does make us happier and healthier (this has been proven), when you are hugging there is an energy transfer that stimulates the neurotransmitters of a part of the brain that controls the release of certain types of hormones etc. that make us feel good, and they do have a long lasting effect on our body and mind. But still. Hagwash was all I could think. But I I do love my hugs, and I know how they make me feel, but looking at my tired face in the mirror, there is no way they are going to add another day to my life. The proof is in the small amount of wrinkles I have begun to see on my face. And the skin that is losing it's elastisity day by day, and the dark circles that always seem to be under my eyes. Yeah, I don't think I am going to live forever because of hugs. But I'll take and give a hug, whenever I can. Hugs give me the warmest fuzzies, and do add a nice warmth to your day.

Oh, so I almost forgot to tell you, the man in the podcast fesses up at the end and admitted he was not telling a truth; that he had fabricated the finding, and that there was no scientific proof for the 12 hugs a day theory. But still, why not give and receive 12 hugs a day? If hugging makes you feel good, and has a positive, healthy and long lasting effect on your body and mind…then I say “Get your hugging on!” Get out there and hug everyone you love. You will feel better and so will they. Oh, I do love my hugs.

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Hugging is good medicine. It transfers energy, and gives the person hugged an emotional boost. You need four hugs a day for survival, eight for maintenance, and twelve for growth. A hug makes you feel good. The skin is the largest organ we have and it needs a great deal of care. A hug can cover a lot of skin and gives the message that you care. It is also a form of communication. It can say things you don't have words for. The nicest thing about a hug is that you usually can't give one without getting one. 

                      Author Unknown 

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 Happy HUGGY Sunday Everyone!

PB: There is one person out there I sure wish I could HUG right now; and that's B.B. Today is our first year..and that makes me one happy woman. I would never in my wildest of dreams could have dreamed up such a handsome and loving man. How lucky am I? The freedom to be me, to continue to grow and to dream, and to be beside such a strong, perfect, always laughing and growing person who is my equal in love and in joy. Even though B.B. is away for work. I feel blessed that he has become such an awesome and fun part of my life. And I can only wait with patience, expectations of more fun and laughter and great hope for better things to come..for more growth and more suprises. This next year is going to be awesome.

 

 

This morning’s bus took over an hour to get downtown due to all the snow that had fallen over night. Groan. Anyhow, this bus ride to me was quite fascinating as there was this gorgeous, and I mean gorgeous specimen of a man standing up right at the back of the bus, dark hair, chiseled features, a suit and a tie (and I don't normally double glance at a suit, ok, but this guy was WOW). Yes, this guy was so heavenly looking, I mean he totally gives Christian Bale a run for his money and then some (in other words, wayyyy hotter than Christian Bale). 

The thing that fascinated me the most was watching every single woman who got on the bus, stare and I mean stare at the guy. Young, old, middle aged women...it didn't matter, they all caught a glimpse of this guy, and I bet their heart skipped a beat, and they will probably be drooling all day long. But the thing was, he could tell all the ladies were staring at him, non-stop, he would get this uncomfortable look in his eyes and then he would close his eyes. Pretty talented I must say... that he could stand at the back of the bus with his eyes closed...which made the women stare even more.  Oh I am sure he has just become part of some women’s fantasies now. Well, anyhow, I thought it was intriguing to say the very least.

Now of course, I am not going to be drooling over him, 'cause I am in love with one hell of an awesome and sexy man, but, I wonder, with all these ladies staring at him, was he bothered by it? (Feeling like a piece of meat, like women complain about sometimes). Or, perhaps he was standing there thinking "Yeah, I know I am hot stuff!" or was he completely and totally unaffected by all the stares and attention? Well, I think it was probably a mixture of all three. But that of course is just my guess.

Now, why am I writing about some good looking guy on a bus, you ask? Well, because I can. And watching the ladies reaction to this man, was pure enjoyment, while being on one heck of a long bus ride. And of course I never have really paid much attention to women’s reactions to men like that. You see men doing it a lot, but now my eyes are a bit wider, and I can see men could probably love or hate the attention just as much as women sometimes do.

Happy Day Everyone!!!!!

Ok, so I watched the Golden Globe Awards last night. As usual it was pretty booring show, not much laughter, and nothing won that I particularily cared for. In fact, all I have to say about the whole show is "Why the hell did I watch it?" Other than the fact that I have to say this (yes, sometimes I have to have a pathetic little opinion now and again), Cameron Diaz really needs to go back to blonde hair. The dark brunette do, just doesn't cut it. I mean my goodness, she has to wear so much god awful make-up that makes her appear almost clown like. She looks tacky. Some stars can get away with blonde to brunette, Rene Zellwegger looked great, but Cameron she is a blonde through and through, and although I have never cared much for her acting, or anything else, I always thought she was one stylish blonde.

 

"Please Cameron, now that J.T. and you have busted up, and you are now back on the market...go back to being a blonde goddess!"

 

On to other things I have an opinion about: Yes, darn it all, I do have an opinion. Why is it when you are in a relationship, men come on to you like there is no tomorrow, they flock to you, they won't leave you alone?. Some are downright rude! I don't get this!! You might be with your man, or you are a man and you are with your lady, and some chick or some dude is putting the moves on your other half, and don't even give a shit about the fact that the other person is standing right there? Some people have balls I tell you.  Sure, sometimes it can come off as "Cool to know what I already know, that my other half is HOT!" but sometimes it could provok a mere tripping (evil laughter) or worse.  A beer in the lap perhaps? Yes, sometimes it really pisses off the other half.

 

And another thing, you are at a pub or club with a friend, a girl clearly likes your friend, and then they walk away saying to you "You are so lucky, he is such a catch!" Meanwhile, you are trying to chase after this girl pleading "NOOOOOOO! I am not with him, he is just my friend, I have a man, he's just not here"  and as this is happening your friend is like "Damn it!" "Why do we stand together all the guys and girls think we are an item?" Hee hee! Well, if I was single I'd have a beef with it, but since I am in a very happy relationship I get the giggles out of it.

 

Now, in all seriousness, I have to say this one big thing. I LOVE B.B. and next week will be our first (as we very jokingly call it) our first year of the best one night stands ever.  Ha ha ha!!!!  We met at the Roadhouse in October 2005, we harrassed the hell out of each other pretty much all night, till hours later we finally danced (and he stopped telling me I was a drunk) and I stopped telling him he was analy retentive (Yup). Then we didn't see each other again for a few months, and then we ran into each other at the bar again. We looked into each others eyes, laughed and gave each other a huge hug. That day, I knew I was going to be spending a lot of magical times with this perfect laughing, sexy-hunk of a man. He was practically making me drool. So nice, so sexy, so funny. He made me light up, and I have been lighting up ever since. 

 

Yup, we have had our ups and downs, our ins and our outs. But he still gives me the butterfly's and still makes me feel like a little school girl, but yet at the same time, I feel strong and sexy beside him, as his equal. I hope for more suprises and more love and much more laughter between us. Yup, his laugh just makes me melt..........

 

Everybody say awwwwwwww!!!!!!!!

 

 

Every year people do this thing called New Years Resolutions; but this year, my resolution is to make NO new resolutions. Oops! Except for this declaration of saying I will not make a resolution.

 

Last year I wrote out 10 of my top goals, by years end, I had done only 4, and none of them except for one was of any significance. So this year, I am keeping everything to myself, and perhaps from myself, that way I won't feel so bad when the end of the year hits again.

 

This year, I want happy suprises. Lots of suprises. And if I really had to pick any goals that I wish to reach then it would still be "STOP SMOKING." That is all I really want right now. But still don't seem to have it in me.  The rest of my goals I am not going to let anyone else in the universe know about them, so that I can't be harped on when they don't become reality.

 

Hmmm, let's see if I can actually keep quiet.

 

If you have made any resolutions--I hope you keep at it until your goals are realized.

 

GO FOR IT!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

Your Eyes Should Be Brown

Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

If cell phones kill the production of sperm; I wonder what it does to eggs? I have been searching the net and still have not found any answer to this question.  If anyone has seen or happens to know the answer to this please do let me know. I am very curious.

I had two awesome chats on line yesterday with my friends John and C.C.; and yes, the talk of eggs (more specifically mine) came up. Well, the talk of eggs have been on my mind A LOT lately. I'll admit it, I am obsessed with it. But I am not going to bore you all with the sordid details of Kelly Dickinson's aging (right inside of  hell) right now. But yes dammit, eggs are on my mind, and we can just leave it at that right now. I mean really...who cares if all of a sudden at 39 I feel a great loss because I have not had children? And how now I feel the tug, tug, tug if you will. Oh, well that is another life, another dream, another thing unrealized. But miracles can happen...right?  Anyhow I'll keep dreaming and obsessing over eggs over the holidays. And I will now leave you with this; some great quotes from a couple of brilliant friends that I adore.

On me having children:

At this rate honey, give up on em'. If you don't have patience for men’s crap, double that and add a hundred to the amount of crap that a kid will give you. ~~C.C. My brilliant friend.

On my Egg/Sperm cell phone question:

So what you're saying is, I don't need to use a condom? Just strap my phone to my crotch?~~John, who always makes me laugh.

 

HAPPY HOLIDAY'S EVERYONE!!!!! 

May love, peace and understanding meet you everywhere you go.

(and may there be no coal in your stockings)

 

 

Star Wars Horoscope for Libra

You are on a lifelong pursuit of justice and determined to succeed. You convey the art of persuasion through force. You always display your supreme intelligence. You have a great talent in obtaining balance between yourself and your surroundings. Star wars character you are most like: Obi Wan Kenobie